Still the Same...

I had another check-up today and there's no change. As much as I tell myself that may be the case, it's still disappointing. She said I'm at a 2-3 (which is a little different than last time when she just said 2), but that I'm "still just 50% effaced". I know the numbers don't mean anything and I could still go into labor at any moment, but it's difficult to know there hasn't been any progress over the last week, especially since I'm having contractions more regularly now. That part is also emotional because every time I have a contraction there's the thought of "maybe this is the time!" and then nothing else happens. It starts to get emotionally exhausting after a while always wondering if today will be the day. Honestly, my feeling is that it will happen soon, like this weekend, but really what do I know? As much as I'm trying not to get my hopes up, it's way too late for that. I really am expecting to have her this weekend. I don't know why I have that in my head. So now everyone is forewarned, if she is not born this weekend I will be WAY disappointed come Monday morning when I have to go to work!!